A Miracle out of A Mistake
By: Sudha Patel
I started having a baby fever when I reached 30. While I was deep into my career, I couldn’t stopped dreaming and it was more like obsessing over wanting a baby. I wanted to hold, love and watch my child grow. I was ready. I couldn’t wait to be a mom. A part of my prayer was answered, but with a wrong partner. I made an error in choosing a life partner, who left me with a priceless gift. A baby. My pride and joy. And the incredible strength that God instilled in me to keep fighting injustice for Nicholas.
After the divorce, his father abandoned me and Nicholas when he was only eight months old. He remained absent, deadbeat, and was not involved in helping me raise Nicholas whatsoever. This alone was an eye-opening experience for me as I had never imagined my life as a single mother.
Nicholas is a big part of my life. He brings me pure joy and happiness and at times, some challenges. His existence alone has brought me so much clarity in my own life. It wasn’t until after he was born that I finally learned to consciously practice self-love, self-acceptance, to live happy, to truly appreciate life, and to completely experience the journey as it comes. There was something special about holding and nurturing an innocent newborn baby. I was able to look outside of myself, care for another human life who was part of me and was now my sole responsibility.
I accepted God’s challenge to raise Nicholas solo and fully focused. Giving up my original career after fifteen-years practicing in architecture design was a rational choice. Taking over the hotel business from my parents when they retired naturally allowed me the perfect opportunity to care of Nicholas and to run a business fulltime.
Motherhood changed my life and for the better. Some of my best qualities as an individual unfolded. I learned to be responsible, nurturing, caring, giving, supportive, and I often found myself sacrificing so much putting his needs above mine. Each day, I enjoyed watching Nicholas grow. He had my undivided attention, complete support and unconditional love. With all the difficulties and hardship that confronted us in our single parenting household, the natural bond between a mother and son kept growing stronger. We are there for each other.
My son is a true miracle out of mistake. He is God’s miracle. I am grateful for my life, appreciate my own unique journey, and feel very blessed to have my only child and favorite son, Nicholas in my life. I cannot stop counting my blessings and imagine my life without him.